It's been too long

Hey there everyone! Sorry I haven't been around lately, but thing got really crazy.
Quick catch-up
father's cancer started to spread, packing and moving, looking for job and interviewing, pregnancy scare, Thanksgiving....
I feel like I'm missing somethings....

Anyway, I needed to get back.

It's funny that the things that are on your mind are the items that catch your eye on the internet.  Lately I have been noticing a lot of thinspiration and motivational postings everywhere.
So, I'm back and ready to do what I can.
Starting at watching what I'm eating again and trying to exercise (pulled a muscle/hernia, not sure which, waiting for a MRI).

So since these have been popping up everywhere it seems, I though I would share it with everyone.
Good to be back

Family + Amsterdam = FATTY

I love my brother. He is my best friend in the whole world. I love spending time with him, except when we are drinking with friends. He knows all my retarded moments and enjoys telling them. But still, I do the same, when I can. It's just that he has more ammo, I am much more retarded than he is.

So he has been here to visit for the week. We went to Amsterdam to do some relaxing. Had a great time, ate way too much food junk (too many space cakes). I made the comment that when i smoke I don't get the munchies....I am a huge liar. HUGE!!! In fact I gained all of the weight back that I had spent so much time loosing.

I have my 5K on Saturday and I just found out that my favorite people who got me into this run are not going. Quickly loosing interest, but I said I would do it and I know I can, so I will. It is not going to be easy, since I have all this weight back on and I have been smoking.

Tomorrow my brother goes home, and I have to get back to work. I am really going to have to buckle down. I have been saying that I need to do that for the past 2 weeks, I think. My words mean nothing. Though I did refuse to purge after a huge binge last night. I just sat there with it, as a punishment. I really can't start doing that again. It doesn't really help. It just becomes addictive, frustrating, and expensive. I just have to stop binging really.

I have 50 days to lose 30 lbs.
Mathematically, it can be done. So we will see what happens....

Lots To Digest

I'm finally done catching up on everything. 

(well, except for school) 

I FINALLY got off my ass and went for a run. 

I kept putting if off, making excuses. 

With all of the drinking and smoking from the holiday, I wasn't sure how the run was going to go. 

It went pretty well considering I ran INTO a trash can. 

Huge bruise on my thigh. 

Other than stopping for that, I only stopped 1 other time. 

I made my 5K route in about 36 min. 

The race is only 2 wks away. 

I found out today that we are moving back to the States.

I have mixed emotions about this. 

I really like living in the UK. 

We leave in almost 2.5 mo.

I still haven't told my mother that we were even thinking of moving (in my head, I was punishing her) whole other story...

This also ups the weight loss ante

I have to loose all this weight by December (at least 25 lbs)

I have the P90X challenge coming up, which will help to shed the lbs. 

I have to really buckle down on the eating (by doing less of it). 

But all I have been craving lately is chocolate. 

We don't have any in the house anymore, since I already ate it all. 

Oh, yeah I almost forgot! 

I got the announcement that my 15yr class reunion is coming up. 

So I have to get fit by then, for sure. 

I'm a little nervous, since I feel like I started my life so much later than everyone else.  (marriage, kids, pets, job...)

Ugh.....

 Anyways.... Hope everyone is doing ok. It's good to be back. 

Getting Back on Track...

Hello to everyone! I'm back from my whirlwind vacation. 
It was a blast, but I'm glad to be back. 
There was a lot of beer drinking during this holiday, so I wasn't exactly looking forward to getting on the scale. But with a light breakfast, minimal to no lunch some days, and a good dinner, as well as a ton of walking and a 20kg pack to carry. I actually only gained 2lbs. 

Got home late last night and took today to recover. Literally slept till 3:30pm. 
Tomorrow I'm back on the food&exercise wagon. 

No excuses!

I have to start training for the marathon on the on the 27th of October. 
But being off the wagon for almost 14 days, 
I will definitely need motivation and discipline. 

Help!! 

I will definitely need everyone's help out there. Since the weather here sucks, getting out for a run is going to be difficult. 

Speaking of everyone out there, I want to say hello to my new followers!

Welcome!

European Vacation

Sorry I haven't posted lately.
Been busy catching up on my school work, lots of papers to write for my research class.  I want to get all my papers done, total of 3, before I leave for my European vacation! Also, my husband has been ill lately. I don't know what it is about men when they are sick, they turn into babies. Suddenly can't take care of themselves.

Anyway, one of our close friends from the States is on his way over the big blue ocean to come explore Europe with us for almost 3 weeks. We are off to visit Ireland first, back to London, off to southern Germany, Prague, Poland, northern Germany, Amsterdam, and finally back home!! It will be a long trip with not a lot of opportunity to get a good workout in, but I am bringing my running shoes with me.  As I'm not an adventurous eater, I don't think that I'll have a hard time with food. At least I hope not. I also downloaded FitnessPal and Blogger onto the Ipad, so hopefully I'll be able to keep in touch and get inspiration, motivation, and encouragement.

I just hope that this muscle I pulled during today's run is healed by the time we leave. It was a bit painful before the run, but I wanted to try anyway.  Needed to run off last nights dinner. DAMN YOU PIZZA HUT!  I only got about a 20 min run in before I had to quit.  I'm going to take some time off from running and lift some weights at home, to tone the arms, while I'm resting my hip.

Hope everyone is doing well. Resisting temptation better than I am.
I really need to get a grip on that...

Couch to 5K--COMPLETED!

I just finished my running program, Couch to 5K (3.1 miles) 
So I'm finally able to run a full 30 minutes. 
Even though I have only done it once.  
I am determined to do it again.

I have already downloaded Bridge to 10K (6.2 miles)
But there is no way that I'm ready for that yet. 
I have just signed up for a 5K, so we will see how that goes.


I'm actually pretty excited
The last time I signed up to run a marathon I quit without even trying and had a friend run for me. He did really well. 

I have made a page for all of my current challenges 

( I added the ones I have finished too)

Drunk eating = Sober fatty

A nice night out with friends ended in me shoveling food in my mouth. I though would skip eating dinner and instead I would drink it. Vodka and soda was my poison, as it had the fewest calories (about 52 calories). Where was this sign when i needed it? Damage done. Going to have to work it off somehow. Was planning on taking today off from working out, since by back has been sore. But I'm going to have to find someway to workout. Punishment for my bad binging. 

Jerry's Drinking Problem

I posted this picture because it always makes me smile! I hope it does the same for you.

So the number on the scale is going down, but my measurements remain the same, and all my clothes fit the same.
If it was the other way around I wouldn't mind
I did some research on this and everything keeps coming up the same....just keep going, your body will catch up.
Impatient!! I'm glad I ordered the body fat measurer. Then I can really see if I'm loosing fat.

Food has been good so far this week.
I had mentioned that I was thinking about deceasing my caloric intake.
Only 571 calories yesterday!

Not so today, ended up B/P.
I never feel like I get everything up.
Cleaned the kitchen and the bathroom up

One of my friends in in town for the week. Supposed to hangout with him today, but I just don't feel like it. We always end up drinking and I really can't afford the empty calories right now. Other than drinking we really have nothing in common other than we are both Americans.

Finishing my Couch-to-5K today!!!
Doing the final 30 minute run
I finally finished something that I started
I have already downloaded the next version: Bridge to 10K

Sorry if I have been rambling.
Here is some thinspo:

Funk

Just not feeling it today. 

Maybe it's the weather. 

It is very blaaa out

It is an ugly fall day

and I'm having an ugly and fat day

Fall is my favorite time of the year. 

You can start to put on layers and cover up.

I like covering up.

Its like I can come out of my shell.

No one can really tell my size when I'm are all covered up. 

I hate the summer

I'm never thin enough to leave the house.

I wouldn't dare get into a bathing suit

I don't remember the last time I wore shorts

A Serious and Personal post

So my husband hasn't been sleeping. He had anxiety and new onset depression. It from being in the UK. It is really hard for him to live away from his family and it doesn't help that he is getting paid in US money, which does not take into account the exchange rate. Everything over here is 2x more expensive. So we have gone from having money and not worrying about it to no money and in debt, borrowing money from both of our parents. So now he is depressed and wanting to go home. We are supposed to stay in the UK for another year. I'm not ready to go home yet.

The PROS about going home early....

Get to spend time with my family (my dad is sick) 

I get to get a dog

I can work, and it will hopefully be a lot easier to get a job

My husband will have more things to do      ex: kickball, baseball games, and he is also a referee for american football

The CONS about moving back...

The feeling of failure (I know this is stupid, but we told everyone that we would be in the UK for 2 years and now we would be going back. It looks like we can't handle it, which we cant, but it just...you know?)

I'll miss traveling, we are supposed to go to Italy before coming home (originally), but that is not going to be an option if we go back early. 

It is much easier to eat healthy over here, without all my favorite restaurants. 

I'll miss my friends here.

Horseback riding    Yes we have that back in the states too.


It's just... I don't know how to feel about it. I don't want to go home. I don't want to deal with everyone there. I'm scared, i guess

Weight Plateau

Hi there,

I was using www.myfitnesspal.com to log in my exercises and food, but for some reason I stopped logging in. It was really easy to log the foods in, they have everything in their database and it is correct information. But the exercises got to be a bit difficult. Since I was doing Insanity, it was easier to log. I just used vigorous calisthenics to calculate the calories burned. What I really need is a heart monitor. This way I can accurately calculate the amount of calories burned.

So for my anniversary gift from my husband, he got me a heart monitor watch. I got to pick the one I want and got a Polar FT40, which monitors heart rate and calories burned, a fit test to tell you how you are progressing and if you are in fat burning heart range. I'm so excited for it to get here!

So, back to the food diary, I have to start logging in my foods again. It really kept me on track and I knew exactly how many calories I had consumed.

I have come to a weight plateau. Stuck fluctuating between 149 and 151 lbs. I have trying to only consume 1000 calories and workout 6 days a week and running up to 29 minutes every other day. Though lately I've been slacking on the workouts, not trying as hard as I should. I have just been tired.

Thinking about decreasing to 900 or 800 calories, but I'm worried that I start getting hungry and binge.  

Any thoughts?

Getting out of the house

STATS:
5'4'' or 64 cm
HW: 162.2 lb
CW: 149.6
GW: 150///145///140///135///130///125///120.....


Ah, another weekend. Not too bad so far. Went running yesterday, ab workout this morning, and we were just sitting around the house after that. I had just had breakfast and was getting hungry again, but it wasn't time to eat. I had to get out of the house. What I love about England is all the footpaths. I wanted to get out and go walking around the countryside. So we left for our adventure, and was it ever. 

My hubby loves the backroads, and we found one that was so off road, we actually got stuck in the road. We had to abandon the car to go find a farmer with a tractor to pull us out. We continues on our way to one of the many estates around England and walked all over, about 2+ miles. We were planning on a run when we got back, but I was so tired, I fell asleep on the way home, so no run for me. 

Tomorrow is a nice and easy day of golfing with friends.

Hope everyone's weekend is going well

P90X

My P90X came in today. I am so excited!!!!!!!!! You can chose from 3 different workouts. I'm doing the lean because I have enough muscle and don't want to gain anymore mass. But doing this intense workout, which is about 1hr long, and eating right, you can get amazing results! My cousin did this all the way through has had 2 kids and looks amazing and lost about 30lbs. I'll show you some before and after pictures. 

this one is my cousin: