A Serious and Personal post

So my husband hasn't been sleeping. He had anxiety and new onset depression. It from being in the UK. It is really hard for him to live away from his family and it doesn't help that he is getting paid in US money, which does not take into account the exchange rate. Everything over here is 2x more expensive. So we have gone from having money and not worrying about it to no money and in debt, borrowing money from both of our parents. So now he is depressed and wanting to go home. We are supposed to stay in the UK for another year. I'm not ready to go home yet.

The PROS about going home early....

Get to spend time with my family (my dad is sick) 

I get to get a dog

I can work, and it will hopefully be a lot easier to get a job

My husband will have more things to do      ex: kickball, baseball games, and he is also a referee for american football

The CONS about moving back...

The feeling of failure (I know this is stupid, but we told everyone that we would be in the UK for 2 years and now we would be going back. It looks like we can't handle it, which we cant, but it just...you know?)

I'll miss traveling, we are supposed to go to Italy before coming home (originally), but that is not going to be an option if we go back early. 

It is much easier to eat healthy over here, without all my favorite restaurants. 

I'll miss my friends here.

Horseback riding    Yes we have that back in the states too.


It's just... I don't know how to feel about it. I don't want to go home. I don't want to deal with everyone there. I'm scared, i guess